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2011-12-18T23:51:00.003+08:00

yes... i cried again...

these few days keep on having the same dream...
is nightmare to me...

in tt dream i see him walking pass me... like a stranger...
in the dream i cried so hard and ask him not to go...
bu he didnt hear and walk towards another person...
hand in hand they walk into the church...

my chest feel pain....
suffocating...

2011-12-10T00:42:00.002+08:00

好问不问，偏偏问我我好不好！
你要我怎么回答你？！
我真的快疯掉了啦！！！

2011-12-04T01:59:00.002+08:00

他说他要结婚了。。。
我听说的时候，我本以为我可以就祝福也为他开心。。。
我本以为我已经放下了，不再去爱，不再去管。。。
但是为什么。。。我知道他要结婚了，我却一点也开心不起来。。。
而且一点也不想祝福他们。。。
心里酸酸的。。。只感觉到了一股厌恶感。。。
恨透了某个人。

是讨厌他要结婚的这件事，还是恨透要结婚的他们？
不。是自己。是恨透了自己八年来根本都没有放下对他的感情。
恨透了自己没有那个宽阔的心去祝福。
恨透了自己的软弱，恨透了自己那时没有好好的去争取，恨透了自己没有那个勇气放弃然后往前走，恨透了自己利用了这段感情让自己不再受伤害。
最恨的就是。。。自己既然骗自己说再也不管，再也不爱，找这个接口不再去碰这段感情，不去好好的处理这段感情。。。

现在我真的不知道要怎么办的好。。。
我不知道我还能不能放得下。。。
即使放不下，等到他真的结了婚，我还是得放开。。。
我现在真的要怎么办？
我的感情要往哪里放，该收在哪里？

2011-12-03T21:22:00.001+08:00

he is getting married and i m goin crazy!!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

stupid!

='(

2011-11-15T21:51:00.003+08:00

long long long long long long long time nv blog liao....

cos now i m bored and lonely so i m here to kill some time but i dun think i will kill much time...

anyway... back to my main topic...
working life is some what acceptable to me now...
but i still feel lonely and empty some how....
haiz...
where have all the man gone to man...
i like them being gay... but at least leave some nice ones for me oso mah...

haiz... speaking rubbish now....
seriously dunno wad to do...
anyway if u do realise (good for u) i have added HMY 15th flash pic to celebrate minami sensei, higashino sensei and yamato sensei being an artist for 15years!!!! YEAH~!!!!
i wanted to congratulate them and thank them for providing all the drawings and stories i love for all my life and in their stories i also learnt a lot of things tt i can use in real life! (i dun mean the sex scenes! >.<)
CONGRATULATIONS!!!! お祝い！！！
LOVE YOU ALL SOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!

2011-09-17T01:00:00.002+08:00

hello everyone!
i havent been blogging becos i m busy with work and i dun have much energy and things to write anyway... haha!

but now i have somethings i wanted to write out here...
anyway, this is my blog so i m suppose to write however i feel and express myself...
so actually there is someone i like...
but is juz tt i cant tell that someone... in case that person wouldnt wan to be friend with me anymore...

if anyone can understand this feeling of mine... i will tell u everything... i have been keeping this to myself for quite some time alr... until today my colleague was talking abt her friend liking her...

haiz... but i can nv say this kind of thing... cos i noe things will nv happen between us...

2011-06-29T21:45:00.001+08:00

心里现在很不好受。。。
但是哭不出来。。。

kite sunday~!

2011-06-19T20:36:00.002+08:00

today i went to fly kite with my sister!!!
but seriously, our kite doesnt fly...
but luckily there some nice kite experts around there to help us with out kite.... becos our kite got stuck in a tree...

but anyway...

i got nth else to say... =P

tt's all for today~!

气到爆！！！！

2011-06-16T00:20:00.002+08:00

刚刚遇到了很不愉快的事情。。。
我很喜欢玩的DS游戏不能开。。。
现在非常地不开心！我总觉得自己很倒霉。每次喜欢玩的游戏不是坏掉就是不能开。。。早上完的时候还好好的，现在却。。。啊！！！！！讨厌死了！！！！
我的身体已经很不舒服了，它还这样对我！！！！

说到身体状况我也很生气。。。
我的感冒才刚刚有好转，但是我的肠胃却在这个时候跟我闹脾气！
肚子现在非常地不舒服。。。
但是没有比我的游戏不能开还严重！
有谁可以救救我呀？！

生病了~

2011-06-13T01:47:00.002+08:00

最近都没有再写blog因为我生病了。。。

得了重感冒。。。现在还在恢复当中，不。。。应该是说在生病当中，因为我的病情好像没有什么好转。但是我也知道我的身体的其他地方也出了些问题。只希望会快点好起来，这样一来我就不会胡思乱想，心里总是忐忑不安的了。。。我看就先说到这里，改日等身体好一点了，再聊聊其他事吧！

小猫咪的梦~

2011-06-10T00:57:00.002+08:00

昨天我又做了一个梦。这次我梦到的是6只小猫，非常的可爱！我梦见它们趴在我家门口，一直喵喵叫，我就开门，让后它们全部就跑进我家，把家里弄得乱七八糟！过后我就下楼买了一些猫食回来给它们吃。。让后我就从梦中醒过来了。。着梦很可爱因为有小猫咪，可是非常的无聊。。。现在真想养一只猫。。。

刚才跟Eliza聊了一会儿，希望她的身体能快点好起来，这样就可以陪我出去了！=)

KUNG FU PANDA 2!!!!!!

2011-06-08T20:16:00.003+08:00

today i went to watch KUNG FU PANDA 2!!!!!

it was super naise!!!!! and super random!!!! i juz love it!!!!!!

WOOTS!!!!!!

is all i have to say for now~!

i love her~! she is soooooo sweet!!!!

寂寞的兔子

2011-06-07T12:38:00.002+08:00

今天不知道怎么了，突然觉得自己好像兔子。。。因为没有人陪在身边的我，感到格外的寂寞，真的好像快要死掉了。。。容易寂寞的我，那么长的一段时间没有和朋友出去，我真感到很寂寞。。。就像一只孤零零的兔子被关在一个小笼子里，也没有人来陪它玩。。。兔子是一只很需要陪伴的动物。一旦失去了陪伴，它会慢慢地感到寂寞而死去。。。

Sweet Dreams~!

2011-06-06T00:20:00.000+08:00

做了个梦。。。很甜蜜的梦。。。但是这个梦越甜蜜我就觉得越可怕。。。因为我知道这个梦是不可能会实现的。。。美丽的房子，可爱的小动物，和自己心爱的人，过着非常美满的人生。。。这可是我一直都很想拥有的生活。。。在梦里，那一个我多么深爱着的人的脸孔，是那么的模糊，但是他是多么的温柔体贴。。。看见那让我安心的灿烂的笑容，但却看不见那笑容的主人，令我觉得我的一切就好像会在这一瞬间消失。。。好可怕。可是说到最后，这也只不过是一场梦而已。。。

2011-06-04T01:01:00.002+08:00

今天是姐最后一天上班。。。也就是说我要开始好好的找一份工作了。。。但是，不懂为什么的，心里总觉得有点哪里不对。我想应该是我还没有做好要去做工的准备吧。。。现在觉得好烦，因为对家里有点愧欠，但却没办法克服心里的那一份对工作的恐惧。。。我知道自己不是一个独立的人，一直都很想为自己做些什么，却还是没法鼓起勇气踏出一步。。现在这样没有用的我，还可以再有什么谎言来骗自己说这一切都只是时间还没到，而不是自己的不中用所造成的呢？我已经再也没有借口了。。。那我现在要怎么办呢？

2011-05-28T00:57:00.002+08:00

终于毕业了。。。但是我没有感到特别的高兴，也不能说我完全没感觉。。。总觉得心里很不安，就这样而已。。。工作找上门，却被我拒绝了。。 “很不可思议吧？” 我是这么想的。。。因为我期盼很久的工作，我却当场就拒绝了。。。但是，心理不会觉得遗憾，不会后悔。。可却又有那么一点点的对不起家人。。我做这样的决定，不知道Anselmor会说些什么。。。如果他还在的话，他一定会说：“do the things u wan, be urself. ” 我每次有什么心事都会跟他说，然后他就会说很多很有道理但我又不是很听得懂的话。。他呀。。每次都能逗我笑的他。。。已经不在身边。。。真的，有时想到他就这样丢下我不管，真的有点讨人厌。。。但是我知道，他没有离开过，他会一直在天上看着我，陪着我的。。

2011-05-20T23:59:00.002+08:00

真的是太离谱了！如果你忙，你嫌麻烦，你就不应该约我们出来。。要不然，你就挑一个你不忙，不嫌麻烦，也不赶时间的日子在约我们出来。。但是，你却要我们早点到！这样会不会太过分了？算了，多年朋友我就不跟你当面说了，免得以后会很难相处。。虽然早已经知道你本来就不是一个不会觉得内疚或愧疚的自私朋友。。我真的觉得那时候为什么会为了你这种人，放弃Sarah这么一个好姐妹。。我希望我不是真的看错人，看错了朋友。。

2011-05-12T23:45:00.000+08:00

i m so bored tt i m tired...

and i start to think i m getting more and more useless...

2011-05-01T23:37:00.001+08:00

i dun get it. i seriously dun get it why whenever i wan to make a simple decision i will think of how others feel first instead of thinking of myself...

i dun get it. really. i m tired also thinking for others, but this is a behaviour tt i cannot change. this is making me frustrated!

but sometimes i try to think for myself and i juz think too much for myself and hurt others. ARGH!!!!!!!!! i seriously hate myself...

haiz... i dun even noe this is a good thing or a bad thing anymore!

should i go out without them tmr? or should i juz go supermarket with my sis and stay home with her the whole day and she do her things and i do my things?

if i leave her alone at home she will be upset, but if i stay home with her, i got nth to do. and i wanted to go out with my friends...

='(

2011-04-18T01:21:00.004+08:00

I love this picture. To me is a veri beautiful scene. Is like they r really in love, and they r enjoying every second with each other. Eliza, wad do u think? Yaoi! If u dun like boy X boy, dun click here.

2011-03-29T21:57:00.001+08:00

from classmates to friends to buddies to lovers to friends to strangers... but u will nv noe... ... tt i do love u...

2011-03-14T00:01:00.001+08:00

Nakamura Shungiku sensei, Haruka Minami sensei, Yamato Nase sensei...
please be ok...
and the whole japan, and the whole world....
i will keep praying...

2011-03-13T01:47:00.002+08:00

Dear Whoever is up there and can help,

Please stop this terrible tragedy, and taking away more and more lives!
1300 is alr alot... adding up to the China earthquake... tt is enough lives!
We did many many wrong things to mother earth, but we did try to change, and we r changing...
and changing needs time... give us more time...
tt is more than enough lives u have taken away....

and this is not juz lives u r taking away, is dreams tt u r taking away...
dreams, childhood, and love ones that u r taking away...

I pray, I beg, I hope, I wish....
stop this tragedy...

2011-02-17T21:27:00.002+08:00

看到他的照片。。
他还是一样的帅，一样的迷人笑容。。。
他还是跟他的女朋友很恩爱甜蜜。。。
看了都让人羡慕。。。
心里却觉得不是滋味。。。
但是，又已经麻目了，没有感觉了。。。

他身边的人，永远都不会是我。。。
他的女朋友最好对他好一点。。。
要不然，她真的是没有眼光。。。
他应该不记得我了吧。。。

好想再跟他说话。。。

2011-02-08T00:33:00.002+08:00

我想了好多东西。。。
最近也哭了很多。。
好累啊！

最近总觉得我好像不是我自己。。。
好像变成了另外一个人。。。
Dion 跟我说我以前不是这样的。。

我想了很久。。
那我以前是怎样的呢？
到现在还是想不起来。。
也没有力气想了。。。

我这样的变化让我自己感到很不舒服。。。
但是，我又可以怎么样呢？

wad can i do?

2011-01-23T23:49:00.004+08:00

that person wont like me anymore...

i m becoming veri different...

different from wad that person is expecting...

i think that person is alr starting to dislike me...

but wad can i do?

wad can i do.....

2011-01-20T20:26:00.002+08:00

today eliza was veri angry with jasmine leong...
and i m a bit scared...
this is only the second time i see her like tt...
totally freak out!

but den i hope she is not angry with me....

Secret of the day

2011-01-15T10:16:00.003+08:00

ok... today i will tell u a secret...

dun tell anybody ok?

this morning, i dreamt of erik.

i noe u all will be freaking out by now... but the more freaky one is coming...

description of this dream is a veri romantic one...

ok... the rest u can imagine it urself, i m not goin into details... cos if i goin to spell everything out, u will puke.

tt is my secret of the day.

2011-01-08T15:13:00.001+08:00

-.-

this is all i have to say...

am i crazy?

2011-01-02T01:46:00.003+08:00

i dunno is facing the computer too much, slping late or the stress that is causing my headache...

recently, my vision can juz suddenly blurred and i feel really giddy...
den my head will start to hurt...

i have realised i have change a lot during this holiday...
i dun think positive anymore...
i dun care abt anything anymore...

i feel like i m on drug...
sometimes i can keep crying and crying for no reasons...
after awhile i start laughing so hard tt my stomach hurts....
without any reasons... or anything i find it funny or sad...

there is something wrong with me...
i wanted to see a psychiatrist...
but i dun think i have the money...

Don't Mess With Me!

2010-12-30T23:59:00.002+08:00

Today finally got the mood to do fyp report..
I almost finish writing the introduction...
Although is only 1 page long, but it took me quite some time to think of what to write.
I didn't really follow the guidelines ruiling gave me, but i think it looks ok...

I finally got the mood to write because today Joy told me something that wake me up...
Reality and virtual world is different...
In virtual world when u made the wrong choice or when u took a wrong step u can always restart and do it all over again and again...
But in reality, this restart button doesn't exist...
If i chose the wrong thing to do, i can nv restart my life and i have to continue with whatever i m doin...

In this few weeks of holidays, i have been throwing myself away...
dun wanna care abt anything in the world, i didnt do any sch work, housework or wadever...
sometimes i dun even care to bath or eat... i juz stick to the virtual world or juz plainly lying down on the bed doin nth... trying to forget everything i have done this pass 2 1/2 years... trying to forget how i felt for everything tt is around me... feeling tt studying is pointless in many many ways...

but when she says that "our lives is his game..."
i realise that things that i m goin through...
the work i have to do, the decisions i have to make, the sacrifices i have given, the events tt i have suffered through...
is all part of his plan...
his is having fun, playing with my life...
he give me opporunities and then he take it away b4 i could even grab it...
he always made things go his way...
this time i wont lose this game...
i will make things go my way...
he wan to play... i play will play with Him!

not myself..

2010-12-27T23:39:00.003+08:00

there's something choking me.
my chest feels uncomfortable.
is it my heart or my lungs?
or is it the stress?
or is juz a feeling of not being loved?

i'm losing myself...
ppl who see this post, pls be honest with me...
if u start thinking, or u start to realise i'm not behaving like the jovi u know...
tell me. u have to make me realise tt i'm being taken over by someone else...
because sometimes, the person u r looking at, may not be me.

i know she is inside me somewhere..

2010-12-27T02:32:00.001+08:00

i cant take it anymore...

sooner or later...

New adopted hamster

2010-12-25T02:00:00.001+08:00

HEY PEOPLE~!

COME AND WELCOME MY NEWLY ADOPTED HAMSTER:

DING DING!

=)

FEEL FREE TO FEED HIM THE STRAWBERRY~!
HE LOVES STRAWVERRIES~!

Guys i LOVE~!

2010-12-20T13:47:00.006+08:00

all this guys here r my type...

can u figure out wad do they have in common?

they all have golden hair~!

Georgina's and Eliza's birthday celebration~!

2010-12-14T17:11:00.003+08:00

On our way to kallang leisure park....

after skating... is beautiful isnt it~?

i mean me not the christmas tree...

LOL! Juz kidding! i really meant the tree.... XP

BORED ME + SCISSORS = CUTTING NOTES

2010-12-14T16:25:00.004+08:00

as u can see these r from paper cuttings...

i did this when i was studying my mst for food processing...

and guess wad?! the paper i use for cutting is the notes i juz copied for studying!

this is wad happens when u put a bored me with a pair of scissors.

BORED ME + SCISSORS = CUTTING NOTES

My Yuuri Darling~! (Adult)

2010-12-14T15:13:00.002+08:00

Isn't my Yuuri darling handsome~!

He is SSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE~!

2010-12-13T15:57:00.002+08:00

recently i havent been using the com becos my hand hurts from the ice skating...
i fell down too many times alr... so i got bruises everywhere...
but ice skating is still veri veri fun...
during ice skating tt day we met zhao xuan nisa's gang and they also go skating to celebrate zhao xuan's birthday... LOL!

ok... i got nth much to say liao...

BYE BYE~!

Cookies~~!

2010-12-09T14:03:00.005+08:00

MAN!!! I'M FUCKING EATING FATS!!!!! BUT I ENJOY IT~~~~!!!!! ~.~

WOOTS!!!!!!!

My Yuuri Darling~!

2010-12-08T16:57:00.001+08:00

he look sweet doesnt he~~~~?

awwww~~~~~~~

2010-12-05T15:10:00.001+08:00

告诉你瞒着你只不过是个决定
放弃你忘记你只怕我无法前进
不知道为什么会如此莫名紧张你
我越了解你越靠近你越犹豫
明知道我爱你却不敢告诉你
我害怕失去你宁愿沉默不语
该如何整理幸福在手里
我恨自己无能为力
明知道我爱你却不敢靠近你
我假装不在意反而痛了自己
多痛都可以不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道我也没关系

2010-12-04T17:56:00.002+08:00

勾引白羊座男人的方法出处

冲动好胜的白羊男人，是超级感官的雄性动物。迷人的曲线、魅惑的神采，所有女性化的象征都是勾引他的最佳良方，如果你够大胆，擦上艳丽的口红，足登高跟鞋，莲步走来，飘散着迷人的香气，胸口还若隐若现可见小山沟，包准他马上生理征服心理，以行动向你靠近。
本文来源：http://www.8s8s.com/xingzuo/xingzuoxiu9046.htm

所以简单的来说，他们是色狼。。。

LEO's SECRET?!?!?!?!

2010-12-04T17:40:00.001+08:00

请别相信狮子座的阳光

或许，狮子座身上最吸引天蝎的是“阳光”的气息，仿佛任何的“阴暗”都能在她“阳光”的照射下驱散。可是，你知道吗？其实，她与巨蟹一样容易多愁善感。她看见感人的情节会滴下眼泪，看到忧伤的词句会爱不释手，遇到烦恼的事会自哀自怜......狮子座的她很容易被自己的情绪左右，从而经常觉得孤独，换个角度看，你会发觉那就是传闻中最阴暗的阳光。

请别相信狮子座的坚强

狮子座给人的印象是最坚强的星座，但你是否有想过那只不过是她“故作”的坚强。狮子座的她从不会在爱人面前大声哭泣，但会躲在被窝里独自垂泪到天明。狮子座的她在和爱人分手后，不会象巨蟹那样，要生要死，她只会嬉笑怒骂，变得更加“开朗”，她的表现总是让人怀疑她投入在这段感情的深浅，以及她的付出；只有那些知道背后真相的人才能看见她背后的眼泪、努力与付出。

如果你"有幸"看到狮子座的泪水的话,那么你要知道:她不是在博取你的同情！而是内心高傲的她不得已，控制不了自己的情绪。

请别相信狮子座的自信

说到自信，我想没有太多的人会怀疑狮子座不是一个自信心爆棚的星座。但是，我在这里告诉你：实际上很多狮子座的她，自卑感很强烈——对人与人的关系非常敏感，常常觉得矮人一截或是觉得别人不尊重她、瞧不起她。于是，那些人自然就不能与之产生亲密的关系，也就不能进入她的圈子；究其原因就是狮子座的她自卑感强烈！

有时，狮子座的自卑感，会让她感觉到自己配不上任何人，对于越是喜欢的对象，越是会自惭形秽，裹足不前。究其原因就是因为狮子自尊心高昂，从而无法在亲密关系中放下自我而寻求突破，其实也是她一种缺乏自信的现象。

请别相信狮子座不会放下自尊

天蝎座骄傲，狮子座高傲，自尊心对于她们来说，可以说如生命般重要。话说回来，难道高傲的狮子不会“轻易”放下自尊吗？！David接触过许多狮蝎恋的案例，许多时候，狮子会为了爱，而放下自尊——我的理解是：她为了自己的自尊而放下了自尊。只有当她对那段刻骨铭心的爱“遗忘”了，才会重拾尊严，做回自己。

真的希望狮子座能做到放下“架子”，而不是放下“自尊”。

本文来源：http://www.8s8s.com/xingzuo/5/xingzuo13092.htm

THIS IS VERI VERI VERI TRUE!!!!

LEO LOVES ARIES~!

2010-12-04T17:31:00.005+08:00

狮子座最配的星座

第一名射手座对于他的热情话题，妳会招架不住

第二名牡羊座对于妳的热情，他会加倍奉还

第三名水瓶座觉得和他在一起充满新鲜感

本文来源：http://www.8s8s.com/xingzuo/shizizuo/30057.html

牡羊座彼此皆是热情如火，但双亲的反对总是绊脚石 91%

射手座跟他在一起天天都是快乐的 98%

水瓶座能感到彼此的魅力，很有可能深入交往 85%

本文来源：http://www.8s8s.com/xingzuo/shizizuo/30057.html

HAHAHAHA!!!!! ARIES GUYS WATCH OUT!!!! I WILL BE AIMING FOR U!!! HAHAHAHA!!!

2010-12-03T20:14:00.000+08:00

i dun wan to study.... =(

2010-12-01T21:02:00.001+08:00

狮子座 VS 金牛座
　　
　　配对评分：50　需要努力维持的一对

　　星座比重：42:58

　　狮子座的你与金牛座的星座位置呈九十度，天生便不协调。金牛座极想占有你的个性，会使喜欢自由行动的你深感无法消受。此外，你是有话憋不住、必须说出来不可的人。而个性悠哉的金牛座却喜欢沉默无语，静静地陪在他喜欢的人身边。金牛会把爱情太理智化，以致于变的像友情，这会在狮子心中积累毒素。陪伴太多，狮子觉得束缚太过、平淡无味，相处太少金牛又感到孤单寂寞难耐，矛盾的心境让你俩不知所措

本文来源：http://www.8s8s.com/xingzuo/xingzuoxiu696.htm

2010-12-01T21:01:00.001+08:00

金牛座
　　对他来说,你似乎是太过活耀的女性,来自其他异性赞美的眼光,很容易使他愠怒不安。
本文来源：http://www.8s8s.com/xingzuo/xingzuoxiu77.htm

2010-12-01T21:00:00.001+08:00

★天真可爱狮子座★
　　和她们在一起，不由你不产生怜香惜玉的感觉，总把她们当成小妹妹，认为她们什么都不懂，和狮子座女人你尽可放开了去做，她们也有泼辣疯狂的一面。尽管有时她会对你的身体或是举动表现地大惊小怪，但是做爱她们也会很投入，会动尽情地享受高潮，她们做爱时一般不象别的女人那样呻吟，而是会发出清脆的笑声，这在女人中是不多见的。狮子座女人由于自己的活泼开朗，可能会和巨蟹座与双鱼座男人比较难以相处
本文来源：http://www.8s8s.com/xingzuo/xingzuoxiu8441.htm

2010-12-01T20:58:00.000+08:00

狮子座 VS 射手座
　　
　　配对评分：100　天生的一对

　　星座比重：48:52

　　两个同属火象星座，很容易产生共鸣共振的感觉，尤其是碰到射手时，将会使你们的热度一下子升到最高点，是一见钟情式、健康开朗的组合。射手只要和狮子在一起，欢乐永远存在。你们两个在一起的话，更像两个玩疯的小孩，不仅会利用周遭的事物来玩的痛快，你们的互动关系也像是一出无比夸张的戏剧。

本文来源：http://www.8s8s.com/xingzuo/xingzuoxiu696.htm

2010-12-01T16:25:00.002+08:00

i m not studying...
i m still here blogging...

2010-12-01T16:25:00.001+08:00

today u dun seems happy to see me....

2010-11-30T19:37:00.001+08:00

cant u juz look at me once?!

='(

2010-11-28T22:57:00.002+08:00

blogging half way through my report writing... haha...
bored... nobody talk to me...
year 3 sure is difficult...

i hope i can get along with him for "her" sake..
i noe she is suffering inside me...
she will disappear anytime but i wont let her...
so i m doin this for her...
i dun really like him, but for "her" i will bear with it...

2010-11-24T23:22:00.002+08:00

ok...
here i m, cos i couldnt continue my report...
no, i should say becos i couldnt start my report...
i dunno wad to write abt egg noodles expt.
but i dun really care, i m veri tired becos of all the menses and stuff.
and the fyp report, i m quite stress by it.
also all the assignments and datasheets coming up and dueing soon, and also the mst is getting nearer and nearer or should i say is juz next week?
i m now totally worn out and i cannot really think anymore...
i m now juz typing wadever that is appearing in my mind...
i m not exactly opening my eyes to type this entry... i m juz basing on my memory and the touch to type this blog entry...
haiz...
i m really freaky tired, and eliza is still on facebook...
sometime really when i see her work, i really feel like jumping off a building becos she was juz too pro abt all this things....
shit!
i m not thinking proper;y anymore.
i cant take it anymore, i think i will juz go and slp...
good nite world!

2010-11-23T09:05:00.002+08:00

blogging early in the morning for me...
i think is crazy...
but i m doin it....

i feel lamed...

i dun wan to go to sch...
becos goin to sch there will juz be more and more datasheets and report coming in...
man! this is ridiculous!
i hate sch life!
at lieast working can earn money, but sch life doesnt earn but instead u have to pay money to let urself suffer!
arh!!!!!!!!!!!!
shit my life! >=(

2010-11-22T22:21:00.002+08:00

haiz....

i dunno wad to say...

pissed off....

juz pissed off...

=(

2010-11-17T23:05:00.001+08:00

i feel guilty today...

becos i didnt do anything today...

and i still can feel so relax....

there is so much things to do, and i m doin nth...

i m really sorry....

sorry everyone....

2010-11-10T23:16:00.000+08:00

today...
i was staring at that person....
but i dun think that person noe...
hehe ^^

2010-11-09T00:46:00.003+08:00

i feel so lonely...
everyday is juz right infront of me but i cannot have it....

i think i still like this person veri much...
but i cant say anything...
if i did really say something...
everything will be gone...

but give me sometime...
i will be over it....
maybe give me a few years...

haiz...

2010-11-02T20:45:00.001+08:00

i suddenly feel veri tired....

dun feel like doin anything...

i dun even wan to breath...

is too tiring...

2010-10-31T02:37:00.002+08:00

i hate it. leaving me alone again... =(

i hate it, but i wont say...

2010-10-30T12:53:00.001+08:00

wanted to talk abt the celebration ytd...
but i think i will post it in the future...
cos i m having serious headache now....

2010-10-28T22:50:00.002+08:00

AAAAARRRRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my darling William!!!!
I M SO SO SO SO SORRY!!!!!!

next time i wont mistaken u again!!!!!!!!
do anything u wan with grelle-san... but pls dun separate him away from my sebby-chan ok?

ok... back to the topic.....

today was a long day...
and tmr is goin to be a long day too~! but i like tmr's long day den today's long day....
anyway....
today i have practical in sch and my group made some glutinous rice balls...
haha!!! haizul say my grp's BALLS is the best and she finish the whole big bowl of it!!!!

the lab is not veri big and not veri small...
ok.... fine.... is normal... but is juz tt there was some extra cleaning needed... like moping...

next is abt my conditions...
is not getting any better... but i think it got worse becos of the long pants today i think...

nvm abt tt...

juz now juz watched the KUROSHITSUJI OVA 1!!!!!!!!!

is freaking funny!!!!
eliza u should watch it!!!!!!

ok... tt is it for today....
i m goin to go dream of my darling grelle-san~!
ciao~!

2010-10-27T18:52:00.003+08:00

now is 6.58pm...

i m playing game and blogging at the same time...

my knee still hurts...
wad cause my knee to hurt?
it happen juz today... this late morning....

it happen at a late morning, 27/10/10, around 11am...
the crime scene is at the T11A...
victim is Jovi Chong...
Murderer is a veri insignificant slope...

is still bleeding till now...
i think i need a few months to let the scar disappear too...
haiz....
my knee look so ugly now!!!!!!

2010-10-26T21:03:00.002+08:00

here i m....
blogging again....

this week my fyp wasnt able to do analysis becos the lab was close for auditing... so cannot use...
and we r actually tight on the schedule...

we have practical reports coming up, and many many assignments coming....
and the datasheets of cos!

i may be stress... but i dun think i m stress to a level of having depression...

right at this moment, i m typing this entry i feel like drinking starbucks...
hmm... no... i think i wanted to try other drinks in TCC...
ok i noe is sudden...

but nvm...
today i m pretty pissed off with one of the lecturers in the sch...
i dun wan to state who it is...
but she juz pissed me off becos all the practicals she teach r all wrong and this make us redo the pracs and we have to wait and we can only go home until late in the evening....
she is a lecturer, she should noe wad to do...
i mean she is also human, so i dun blame her on making mistakes...
but as a professional... the mistakes she made was too big to juz close one eye and forget abt it...
wasting the chemicals in the labs... the risk of spoiling the equipment...
she can actually made a practical which only needed 1hour to take 3 or more hours!
HOW PRO IS THAT!!!!!!

wadever...
dun wan to talk abt tt. eoc.

i think today i will try starting my work with the keying in the results for the fyp report and den follow by the melamine assignment den i will go into my own indidvidual ICP report writing...

hmm... i think the report writing have to wait till tmr...
becos as u can see... i m still here blogging myself away...

ok... i need to go get busy!!!!!

2010-10-26T08:58:00.002+08:00

i think at this time a lot of ppl is doin fyp in the sch....

but here i m blogging in this dead blog...

i m confused abt the things tt are happening around me...

i dunno y things happen and i cant think why and how it happen anymore....

i juz take wadever ppl gives and tt's tt.

i dunno whether this is a good thing or is it a bad thing, but i only noe tt my head feel heavy... and i dun feel veri well...

is alr 9.01am...
and i m still here blabbering craps...

no matter how much say, i still cant take my mind off things...
i dunno wad thing is tt, but i noe it filled my mind with it...
is heavy, and i dunno wad to do abt it...

maybe somebody who juz pass by this blog entry can give me some advice?

2010-10-25T21:15:00.002+08:00

today's events:

in the morning, i woke up earlier than usual but i was still late for class becos i have my menses and it was really pain!!!!

so i sat on the toilet bowl for 1 whole hour!
in the end i still manage to bath and get out of the bathroom...
after tt i change my clothes and went out...
but i was still in pain, so i walk veri slowly to the bus stop and the bus took its own sweet time.
den when i finally reached the train station platform... (i was still in pain...) the train took its own sweet time again.... i waited 6 minutes for tt train... not veri squeezy so is fine...

but one thing i wan to apologize to rui ling, alicia, eliza and pei fang for waiting for me until so late... i m so sorry! =(

today, tt bitch was late for class so we r quite lucky...
but still when i reached sch i was still not feeling veri well.... (STILL in pain...)
den i got dried cranberry from joni....
after lessons... we walk through the linkway from 11b to 11a which is not open yet...
we then when to fc 5 to eat ( becos fc 4 got no seats)...
everybody eat bento, except xh, get, and joni if i m not mistaken... ( tt is wad i saw)
i only ate a chocolate waffle and the drank a cut of grass jelly...
OH! i almost forgot! i and ruiling and eliza shared a packet of burger king onion rings snack!
erm.... the taste is like..... i think i will juz keep it to myself.... go try if u saw it!

den back to lesson... dun understand wad ro ann is teaching cos she was goin damn fast like ZOOM! so forget abt her lessons... den i when to hui kheng's sensory evaluation...
i cant really taste the difference... but anyway all the samples taste nice and i finish them all....

den after tt i and eliza and rui ling head to the library 4a to have a discussion on the fyp report writing... but ended up as usual.... we were playing facebook....

but we did come up with something and each of us have something to do, however... i havent start doin anything but eliza is alr half way through her research....

i feel so useless... seriously... during this whole fyp... i realised i didnt do anything useful to the group or the project....
even if i did something, it was always wrong....
i sometime got a feeling tt eliza and ruiling r pissed off at me, but they r nice ppl, so they didnt show it.... and they r willing to tell me things tt i dun understand....
i m so happy tt i got them as my grpmates....

ok then... i m off to my facebook and manga....
i think i start work tmr.... haiz....

2010-10-24T23:32:00.002+08:00

now is 11.33pm...
is a sunday, and half an hour more it will be monday...
here, i m not slping but writing away in my dead blog...

i m so bored!

and i seriously dun wan to go to sch tmr...

i left a few hours to slp....

my mood now: LAMED -_-"

2010-10-22T21:26:00.001+08:00

i'm tired...

and i noe my blog is dead...

2010-08-26T10:58:00.002+08:00

AHHHHH!!!!!!!

SUCKY!!!!!!!!!!

Eliza...Rui Ling.... HOW?????

I think she's too much!!!!

But i oso think tt we abiit slack...

haiz....

I.R.R.H.M.F.Y.P.I.C.L.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-08-15T00:04:00.001+08:00

... . . ... ...
. ... .. ... ... ... .. .. ...
... ... ... .. ... ... .. .. ...

2010-08-13T11:50:00.002+08:00

I seriously cannot live without u....

Everything will be pointless anyway...

2010-08-13T01:06:00.003+08:00

I can nv forget how sweet it is when they r together!!!!!!

>.<

KYAAA~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SWEET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I M GONNA DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

镇澜鹰X武悦阳

2010-07-27T20:56:00.002+08:00

TEST

Teachers are
Evil.
Slaughter
Them.

2010-07-24T16:41:00.002+08:00

Making a note:

29 July - FEO Jam Presentation
30 July - Submission of Food Packaging Report, Presentation and Prototype
30 July - Submission of Food Packaging Trends Assignment
30 July - Food Flavour Quiz
30 July - Go to Food Processing Lab to check on potatoes
3 Aug - Conflict Management Role Play Test
4 Aug - GEMs Written Test
5 Aug - FYP LAB

9 Aug - YOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAH~!
12 Aug - I think we doin FYP LAB oso...
15 ~ 17 Aug - CHALET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the rest is left for studying......

can u imagine the kind of life i m goin through?

i m hungry

2010-07-24T16:14:00.004+08:00

Right now I'm freaking hungry...

But i dun wan to maggie mee....

but i at only got maggie mee...

but i dun wan to go down and buy things to eat...

but i m still very hungry....

but i still got a lot of things to do...

but i m still hungry....

2010-07-19T20:59:00.002+08:00

I got a new laptop/notebook...

pretty nice...

I love it...

but is juz a bit wasted for the previous one...

anyway... today i didnt feel well.. having headaches whole day long... even now when i m typing this... but i m still doin the packaging report...

tmr goin to eat the cheese cake eliza make... I M SO EXCITED!!!!!
YEAH!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!

2010-07-14T12:50:00.001+08:00

i got nth to write abt.. hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.....

lame... =.="

2010-06-27T14:05:00.000+08:00

stupid!
tmr start sch..

LRS = Lecturers aRe Stupid

GET IT?!

2010-06-26T16:30:00.002+08:00

I M DAMN PISSED OFF!!!!!!

wad is her problem?!

juz come back and scold scold scold...

PMS or so fast MENOPAUSE?!?!

ASSHOLE!!!!!

u think i stay at home juz to cook for u isit?!?!?!?!

AARRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-06-23T21:46:00.003+08:00

AHHHH!!!!

I HATE MYSELF!!!!!!

i miss you....

2010-06-21T10:14:00.004+08:00

I MISS MY LAPTOP!!!!!

WHEN IS IT COMING BACK?!

WHY HAT PERSON DIDNT CALL ME OR SMS ME ONE?!?!

FUCK LAH! i damn suay!
for the calling assignment, dun even have one survey done and joni and ruiling got theirs done so easily...
kao! haiz... wadever... they dun wan to pick up phone and they dun wan to do oso no choice..

I HATE MR SAMUEL AW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I DUN CARE WHO SEE THIS!!!!!
I HATE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HE IS CRAZY!!!!!

2010-05-30T21:17:00.001+08:00

wad m i goin to do?

i cant finish my work...

i cant even start...

and i m juz crying and crying...

i feel so stress up now...

tears juz flow down my face....

wad m i goin to do....

2010-05-28T13:56:00.002+08:00

did you see the pile of dirty clothes at the back? eewwwww~~!!

act cute... bleahhhh!!!!!

my sis and my mummy~!

the cake look great!!!! *of cos! is i buy one!*

anyway eliza... with this amt of space i cannot put another 9 books in!!!! how?!?!?!

2010-05-25T21:59:00.001+08:00

Homare... you know you can't do anything to Ayase...
He belongs to Kanou...
Even though u love him so much...
he still wont be yours...

2010-05-20T22:27:00.002+08:00

KILL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
KILL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
KILL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I DUN CARE ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HEHE ^^

2010-05-16T23:33:00.002+08:00

why? why did u leave him alone?!
he still loves u! do u know how much pain he is suffering inside?!
You love him too dun u? so why?
juz becos is ur duty doesnt mean u have to sacrifies ur life!!!

Tsukishima...
he loves u...
i can feel his sadness, his pain..
he is totally confused...
y didnt u take the memories with u...?!

you were with him the whole night b4 u went away..
y didnt u say a word?!
WHY?!?!

2010-05-15T09:47:00.001+08:00

early this moring around 8am ++..

“不是不相信你，只是你这个女儿没有用。”

guess who said tt to me?

2010-05-13T22:30:00.004+08:00

BUAY SONG BUAY SONG BUAY SONG BUAY SONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WAD'S THE PROBLEM WITH U!!!!

SO WAD U PAY FOR EVERYTHING?!
SO WAD U GIVE ME MONEY?!
SO WAD U SUPPORTING THE FAMILY?!

THAT DOESN'T MEAN I HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING U SAY AND HAVE TO ACCEPT ALL THE INSULTS FROM U!!!!!!!!

ASSHOLE!!!! U DUN WAN TO GIVE MONEY DEN DUN GIVE LAH!!!! DUN ALWAYS MAKE URSELF UNTIL SO KE LIAN!!

ALWAYS THREATEN ME WITH THAT!!!

FIRST FEW TIMES I PLAY ALONG WITH U.. DEN AFTER TT U THINK IT WORKS AND ALWAYS U IT TO BOSS ME AROUND! U THINK MONEY BIG ARH?!

DUN GIVE DUN GIVE LAH!
SEE IF I CARE!
I DUN WORK FOR U OK?! BITCH!

MY YAOI!!!!!

2010-05-01T19:53:00.004+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MY MANGAFOX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MY YAOI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YAOI YAOI YAOI YAOI YAOI YAOI YAOI YAOI YAOI YAOI YAOI YAOI YAOI YAOI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I FELT TT MY BLOOD PRESSURE WENT UP...

I DUN BLAME MANGAFOX BECOS ALL THIS WHILE THEY HAVE BEEN THERE FOR ME...
THEY ALSO DUN WAN TO REMOVE THE MANGAS...
BUT WHY GOOGLE MUZ LIKE TT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HATE THEM HATE THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WAHHHHH!!!!!! MY YAOIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

07-Ghost!!!!!

2010-04-03T23:36:00.003+08:00

07-ghost!!! the most shuai anime i ever seen!!!!!
AHHHH!!!!

although Teito and Labrador-san is not really the shuai ge type but they are really beautiful beings... Also we have Frau, Mikage, Castor-san, Hakuren, Lance Shikyou~~~~ Awww~~~~~~
i also like Lazett, sister Rosalie, Libelle and Anthena.. they are quite cute and funny...
they r all from the Church...

but the really really shuai one are all at the Barsburg Empire's military..
we have Kuroyuri (he is not cute, he is shuai!), Haruse, Konatsu, Hyuuga.. anyway Katsuragi is not veri shuai...

of course they also have my favourite of all... Ayanami-sama!!!!!!
i dunno why, but no matter how evil he is, how many ppl he killed, or how he tortured Teito, i can nv hate him...
maybe becos he is too shuai alr... *blush* ^^

but anyway when u take a closer look at Haruse... dun u think he look like Yamazaki Susumu in Peacemaker Kurogane? ^^

Watch 07-Ghost when u have the time! Recommended~!
Peacemaker Kurogane too~!
Best....! Go watch Junjou Romantica!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

THIS IS CRAP!

2010-03-17T23:22:00.002+08:00

FINE!!!
GO AHEAD AND IGNORE ME!!!!
AS IF I CARE!!!!
SAME KIND OF ATTITUDE AND PERSONALITY!!!
IF HAVE THIS KIND OF PARENTS, U GET THIS KIND OF DAUGHTER!

BUT I WONDER HOW COME I'M NOT LIKE TT?
MAYBE I'M LUCKY TT I DID NOT GET IT FROM THE GENES..
OR MAYBE I DIDNT EVEN HAVE THE SIMILAR DNA?

GIVING ME THIS CRAP FROM THE MORNING TILL NOW!
IS CRAP! YOU KNOW?! THIS IS ALL CRAP!!!!
ALWAYS THINK TT U R THE MOST PATHETIC ONE AND WANTED SOMEONE TO PITY U!!!
PLEASE LAH!!! DUN BE SO NAIVE AND CHILDISH!!!
EVERYBODY HAVE THEIR OWN DIFFICULTIES AND EVERYBODY IS PATHETIC IN SOME WAY OR ANOTHER...
WAKE UP MAN! FACE THE REALITY!
IS NOT LIKE U R 15 16.. U ALL R ALR 21 AND 42!
COME ON MAN!
DUN GIVE ME ANYMORE THIS KIND OF CHILDISH SHIT!

2010-03-16T02:46:00.001+08:00

我失恋了。。
呜呜呜。。 ='(

wadever i care!!!
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!

GAGA!!!!

2010-03-10T00:08:00.002+08:00

啊！！！！！！！！！！！！

我快疯了！我快疯了！我快疯了！
我真的快疯掉了！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

以前的全部的不愉快都回来了！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

我到底是怎么一回事？！？！？！？！？！

分手就分手了嘛！干吗还去想那么多？！
人家幸不幸福，快不快乐，关你个屁事啊！

你发春期呀你！！莫明其妙！！！

啊！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！
疯子！

2010-03-08T17:52:00.001+08:00

我也只希望你能找到你爱的也爱你的人。。

我只希望你能幸福快乐。。

千千万万的对不起

2010-03-08T00:37:00.002+08:00

对。。我知道是我的错。。是我对不起他。。我不应该在那个时候和他分手。。
但是，一切都扯平了不是吗？
我跟他现在是同样的人类。。
没有差啊！

但是，从分手那一天到现在。。
我没有一天是没感到内疚的。。
我也知道自己很过分。。

但是，我也跟他说过很多次的对不起。。
他自己也说了，他也有错。。
是他自己没有牢牢地抓我，挽留我。。

总之，我知道我错在哪里。。
我会永远记住我自己做了些什么残忍的事，说出了什么可恶的话。。

我。。。让你受苦了。。
但是，她说你过得很好。。
所以，我也放心了一点。。

我有千千万万的对不起。。
都想对你说。。
但是，我不知道你想不想听。。
这些写给你的，你看不懂。。
我也无所谓了。。
只希望你过得幸福，开心就好了。。。

BANNED PUPILS FROM SENDING VALENTINE CARDS?!

2010-02-12T21:03:00.001+08:00

WHAT THE HACK IS THIS?!?!?!

THIS IS RIDICULOUS!!!!!

School bans pupils from sending Valentine cards:
http://news.sg.msn.com/weird-news/article.aspx?cp-documentid=3856951

2010-02-09T22:43:00.000+08:00

i dun understand how can someone be so cruel!!!!!!
heartless!!!!
i hate him!!!!!!!!!
ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-02-07T01:01:00.000+08:00

i havent even start studying!!!!! i feel so dead and i m so dead!!!!!!