I love this picture. To me is a veri beautiful scene. Is like they r really in love, and they r enjoying every second with each other. Eliza, wad do u think? Yaoi! If u dun like boy X boy, dun click here.

from classmates to friends to buddies to lovers to friends to strangers... but u will nv noe... ... tt i do love u...

Nakamura Shungiku sensei, Haruka Minami sensei, Yamato Nase sensei...
please be ok...
and the whole japan, and the whole world....
i will keep praying...

Dear Whoever is up there and can help,

Please stop this terrible tragedy, and taking away more and more lives!
1300 is alr alot... adding up to the China earthquake... tt is enough lives!
We did many many wrong things to mother earth, but we did try to change, and we r changing...
and changing needs time... give us more time...
tt is more than enough lives u have taken away....

and this is not juz lives u r taking away, is dreams tt u r taking away...
dreams, childhood, and love ones that u r taking away...

I pray, I beg, I hope, I wish....
stop this tragedy...

看到他的照片。。
他还是一样的帅，一样的迷人笑容。。。
他还是跟他的女朋友很恩爱甜蜜。。。
看了都让人羡慕。。。
心里却觉得不是滋味。。。
但是，又已经麻目了，没有感觉了。。。


他身边的人，永远都不会是我。。。
他的女朋友最好对他好一点。。。
要不然，她真的是没有眼光。。。
他应该不记得我了吧。。。

好想再跟他说话。。。

我想了好多东西。。。
最近也哭了很多。。
好累啊！

最近总觉得我好像不是我自己。。。
好像变成了另外一个人。。。
Dion 跟我说我以前不是这样的。。

我想了很久。。
那我以前是怎样的呢？
到现在还是想不起来。。
也没有力气想了。。。

我这样的变化让我自己感到很不舒服。。。
但是，我又可以怎么样呢？

wad can i do?

that person wont like me anymore...

i m becoming veri different...

different from wad that person is expecting...

i think that person is alr starting to dislike me...

but wad can i do?

wad can i do.....

today eliza was veri angry with jasmine leong...
and i m a bit scared...
this is only the second time i see her like tt...
totally freak out!

but den i hope she is not angry with me....

Secret of the day

ok... today i will tell u a secret...

dun tell anybody ok?

this morning, i dreamt of erik.

i noe u all will be freaking out by now... but the more freaky one is coming...

description of this dream is a veri romantic one...

ok... the rest u can imagine it urself, i m not goin into details... cos if i goin to spell everything out, u will puke.

tt is my secret of the day.

-.-

this is all i have to say...

am i crazy?

i dunno is facing the computer too much, slping late or the stress that is causing my headache...

recently, my vision can juz suddenly blurred and i feel really giddy...
den my head will start to hurt...

i have realised i have change a lot during this holiday...
i dun think positive anymore...
i dun care abt anything anymore...

i feel like i m on drug...
sometimes i can keep crying and crying for no reasons...
after awhile i start laughing so hard tt my stomach hurts....
without any reasons... or anything i find it funny or sad...

there is something wrong with me...
i wanted to see a psychiatrist...
but i dun think i have the money...

Don't Mess With Me!

Today finally got the mood to do fyp report..
I almost finish writing the introduction...
Although is only 1 page long, but it took me quite some time to think of what to write.
I didn't really follow the guidelines ruiling gave me, but i think it looks ok...

I finally got the mood to write because today Joy told me something that wake me up...
Reality and virtual world is different...
In virtual world when u made the wrong choice or when u took a wrong step u can always restart and do it all over again and again...
But in reality, this restart button doesn't exist...
If i chose the wrong thing to do, i can nv restart my life and i have to continue with whatever i m doin...

In this few weeks of holidays, i have been throwing myself away...
dun wanna care abt anything in the world, i didnt do any sch work, housework or wadever...
sometimes i dun even care to bath or eat... i juz stick to the virtual world or juz plainly lying down on the bed doin nth... trying to forget everything i have done this pass 2 1/2 years... trying to forget how i felt for everything tt is around me... feeling tt studying is pointless in many many ways...

but when she says that "our lives is his game..."
i realise that things that i m goin through...
the work i have to do, the decisions i have to make, the sacrifices i have given, the events tt i have suffered through...
is all part of his plan...
his is having fun, playing with my life...
he give me opporunities and then he take it away b4 i could even grab it...
he always made things go his way...
this time i wont lose this game...
i will make things go my way...
he wan to play... i play will play with Him!

not myself..

there's something choking me.
my chest feels uncomfortable.
is it my heart or my lungs?
or is it the stress?
or is juz a feeling of not being loved?

i'm losing myself...
ppl who see this post, pls be honest with me...
if u start thinking, or u start to realise i'm not behaving like the jovi u know...
tell me. u have to make me realise tt i'm being taken over by someone else...
because sometimes, the person u r looking at, may not be me.

i know she is inside me somewhere..

i cant take it anymore...

sooner or later...

New adopted hamster

HEY PEOPLE~!

COME AND WELCOME MY NEWLY ADOPTED HAMSTER:

DING DING!

=)

FEEL FREE TO FEED HIM THE STRAWBERRY~!
HE LOVES STRAWVERRIES~!

Guys i LOVE~!

all this guys here r my type...

can u figure out wad do they have in common?

they all have golden hair~!

Georgina's and Eliza's birthday celebration~!

On our way to kallang leisure park....

after skating... is beautiful isnt it~?

i mean me not the christmas tree...

LOL! Juz kidding! i really meant the tree.... XP

BORED ME + SCISSORS = CUTTING NOTES

as u can see these r from paper cuttings...

i did this when i was studying my mst for food processing...

and guess wad?! the paper i use for cutting is the notes i juz copied for studying!

this is wad happens when u put a bored me with a pair of scissors.

BORED ME + SCISSORS = CUTTING NOTES

My Yuuri Darling~! (Adult)

Isn't my Yuuri darling handsome~!

He is SSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE~!

recently i havent been using the com becos my hand hurts from the ice skating...
i fell down too many times alr... so i got bruises everywhere...
but ice skating is still veri veri fun...
during ice skating tt day we met zhao xuan nisa's gang and they also go skating to celebrate zhao xuan's birthday... LOL!

ok... i got nth much to say liao...

BYE BYE~!