Memorable day for my Galaxy Note

This morning when I woke up, I pick up my phone and unlock it. Then I realized my phone battery is totally flat so I tried charging it and start up again. But my phone got stuck at the Samsung start up screen and it wont load any further. THEN I realized my phone is DEAD! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But wad can i do?! my precious galaxy note is being sent for repair at jurong point's samsung service center and i have to wait for 3 days to get my phone back. The service person say if is software problems i dun need to pay so much. but if is hardware problem and they have to change the motherboard den it will be over $200!!!!!! and all the data will be deleted!!!! all my precious games are gone!!!! GONEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but like tt oso good... i will focus more on the boys den my phone and also my head and eyes wont hurt so much... so pls ppl... if u wan to contact me, pls sms or facebook me... becos currently i dun have any whatsapp or LINE or WeChat. Thank you veri much.

HOPEFULLY THE REPAIR FEES AREN'T EXPENSIVE.

heartache and stress

i was never so heartache and stress at the same time... but this time round becos of quack quack i experience it for the first time... becos he is being picky abt food he didnt wan to eat the health food tt the vet gives and he couldnt get any treats. he looks so sad and he has been begging for treats and those unhealthy food which r his favorites...  we couldnt give due to vet's order ... and now he look so sad and weak... and the feeding tube of his is giving me headaches becos his wound open up and the tube wasnt fixed d there anymore... i m really scared tt the whole tube might drop out if he scratch it or when he shake his head too violently... i really feel like crying.... but my sister will think i m pushing everything away... not wanting quack quack to recover and get healthy... she will find all sorts of stupid reasoning to frame ppl tt is wad she is good at doing... i m really stressed out... my headache is getting more frequent and my back is not getting any better with the salonpas. my mother cannot help me in anyway. wad m i goin to do now?

sweet tiny things ♥♥♥

ytd our neighbour who also have cats at home brought his new born kitten (only 2 weeks old) over to show us. he also offered to let us keep it after it get bigger, but me and my sis refused becos i dun think we can keep anymore cats with our house being so small and packed. plus i dun think Orbin and Quack quack wan it either... they dun seems veri friendly too the kitten. haha!

anyway, i juz wanted to say tt tiny things like sharing joy with neighbours is really somethin something i appreciate. also my other neighbour will bring the food she cook to us sharing and caring for our cats and we celebrate each other's festival together. is nice like tt. but juz some neighbours got veri terrible attitude and habits which makes things difficult for us. i dun wan to leave here but our family really do need a bigger house for the boys. also if we r planning to add another puppy to the list... a bigger house is definitely necessary.

Quack Quack's health condition....

I wonder when quack quack will get well... but i really hope is really soon... the vet say that he can take off the feeding tube next week but after taking out the feeding tube we have to help him replenish his body fluid by giving him IV drips everyday for 15 to 30 mins!!!! this means that i have to give him injections everyday!!!! My phobia of needles need to be overcome by next week! i cant let my sister do everything... firstly becos she is leaving for korea soon for her first overseas vacation, so i will be left alone at home without anybody's help... secondly even after she come back from her vacation i also cannot let her do everything becos after both of us got a job, we have to share the workload of taking care of the boys... i dunno whether i will die during the process due to high level of stress causing high blood pressure and i will have a heart attack or something but i really hope that quack quack will recover really really soon (provided that he wasnt that picky in his food =.=")

oh! and by the way! i didnt mention how and when quack quack got sick right? it was actually 1-2 mths ago... one morning when we woke up we found vomits all over the floor and we saw quack quack vomiting... he didnt have any appetite and he keep vomiting causing him to vomit out blood with the gastric acid and this almost lead him to having stomach ulcer... however, the whole cause of the vomiting was his small kidney which couldnt function well and remove all the toxic (specifically urea) in the blood and this cause the stomach lining thinning and cause slight stomach ulcer and he will vomit. this is how the whole thing goes so.... a feeding tube was inserted to control his diet and also becos he didnt wan to eat the kidney health foods. he have to slim down to a healthier weight so tt his kidney wont have such a heavy load to process. also he was dehydrating becos he cannot adsorb water into his body and he needed more water den usual to remove the toxin in his blood tt is why the IV drip come in to help circulate the toxin out of his body.

anyway... back to my main point... i dunno whether i can handle the injections but i will try my best to keep quack quack healthy and happy! (i hope i can really do it.... TT.TT)

我想更坚强， 我不想再做无能又懦弱的我。

对，又是我这个不孝女儿，没用的妹妹，无能的主人。
我真的一直有很努力的左我能做的东西，和我喜欢的东西。
但是，我很害怕改变。环境的变化，合作的伙伴变了，手头上要做的工作也不一样了。
这些的一切都改变了，那我又会变成什么样子?
每次有改变，我就会伤害到身边的人。尤其是家人。
我不知道要真么办好。。。
不知道能和谁说这些话，感到很沉重。
我真想买间大房子大家开开心心，平平安安，健健康康的过日子。
我到底该怎么做，要做些什么才能不让大家不开心？
心好沉。。。

fucking pissed off

is my last day of work and she want to pissed me off like tt... amazing! wad can i say? she' my mother! amazing powers of hers to pissed me off...

i rmb wad i wanted to say....and tt is...


give me back my freedom!

Woot~!

Change my  blogskin again... too long nv do this kind of thing alr... took damn long time... and is still not perfect... but nvm... i still like it veri much and nonody actually reads my blog anyway so is only for my own entertainment....

but anyway wad was i goin to type in this post again... hmmm..... ok... i forgot... nvm... maybe next time... hahahahahaha!!!!!

我真的很不想做工啊！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

haiz.....

sianzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..............................

aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

怎么还不来

我真的已经很累了。 你怎么还不来接我走？我等了很久。。。你就来带我走吧。

is always like tt...

everytime i wan to go out she will find some reason to make me stay at home. den whenbi mention abt goin overseas she will find all sorts of excuse juz not to let me go. so wad i got a passport? when i said i wanted to renew my passport she gets angry... when i say i goin to book flight tickets she scolds me for not asking for permission to go overseas... what is this? yes... this is my life.

不知道为什么......

我觉得我真的累了......

熟悉的场景。。。

这张照片很熟悉吧？
跟以前那张好像一摸一样。。。
一样是在巴士站。。。
一样的下着雨。。。
但是已经不是在那个拥有我们许多回忆的巴士站。。。
情况也不一样了。。。
你已不在我身边。。。
而我再也不能感受到你的温暖。。。
这回忆我不会忘。。。
我会好好的收着，藏在心底最最深处。。。

就这么的结束了？

觉得很辛苦，心很痛.
觉得好像做错了什么事，但是又说不上来。
是压力大吗？
白头发也越来越多。。。
慢慢开始感觉到活着很累，为什么不就这么的结束算了。
可是，一想到家里，想到 Orbin 和 Quack quack 就没有办法。。。
也一直想要人疼爱的我，不知道缘分到了没有。
等着等着，我真的也累了。。。

。。。。

amazing!

is amazing how ppl can juz flare up like tt and for every little thing which wasnt even important. is also amazing how a person can juz be angry at the words tt she stuff into ppl's mouth and totally push the blame to the other party. i m like 'wow!' a person can actually do tt?! especially when tt person is my own elder sister. knowing her for so many years... i wonder where she learnt this trick making ppl sooooooo speechless towards all her actions and let her have her way scolding ppl and letting her temper out like nobody's business. does she even noe wad she is doin? does she even realise tt she dun listen to anybody? does she even know wad she is speaking using tt fucking mouth of hers? i mean seriously! i didnt mention a word abt not doin it, and she can fucking say it out like tt! i think her interpretation really need some professional help. so tt she can shut her fucking trap and stop assuming things and reading the wrong things between the lines. fuck!

我是负担吗？

最近记忆里越来越差。
想到要做的事情，过了几分钟就网的一干二净。
但是当我想要去记起我本来要做的东西的时候，头就用的很厉害。
有时候也想很努力的去想起以前美好的时光或者做过的事，但也什么都想不起来。
没有回忆的画面，但是心依然感觉得到那时的喜怒哀乐。。。
感觉自己好像变得越来越恐怖了。。。 哈哈！

愛一個人真的有那麼辛苦嗎？

看到凡凡這個樣子我的心都碎了。。。
好心酸。。。好心疼。。。
真的好想陪在他身邊。。。
但是我不能。。。
因為凡凡現在最需要的不是任何人。。。
而是。。。翔翔。

我真的很希望他們可以和好，從新複合。。。

翔翔，凡凡真的很需要你，也很愛你。。。
你回到他身邊好嗎？
我知道這對你來說也不是一件很輕松的事。。。
你也哭過我都看到了。。。
你是怎麼樣的下定決心的我也能了解你的痛。。。
但是。。。凡凡他。。真的。。。
我不知道你們發生了什麼事。。。
但是只要在一起，再怎麼樣可怕的未來都不會是一個問題。。。
翔翔，我求你了。。。
回到凡凡身邊吧。。。
他等了你一輩子了。。。難道你能給他的就只有冷落嗎？

应该没什么好怕的了。。。

开始上班了。
身体不停的颤抖着。
好像不自觉的在害怕什么。
但是。。。
辞职信都已写好了，就只是差还没交上去。
应该没有什么好怕了吧。。。
希望一切会顺利的进行。。。

╯▂╰

天气凉了~

啊。。。 最近我越来越容易生病了。。。
可能是天气开始慢慢变凉了吧。。。
身子本身就不受寒。。。
容易感到疲累，然后就染上了感冒。。。
真得好累呀。。。

不工作也累。。。

最近一直觉得视线不集中，容易头痛头晕。。。
身体上上下下都很酸痛。。。
也很容易觉得累。。。

应该是年纪大了。。。
体力慢慢的衰退了吧。。。
跑一小段路就喘得很厉害。。。

真的不忍老是不行的了。。。
我看还是抽一点时间出来游泳或做作其他的运动。。
要不然再这样下去，会死得早。。

对了！关于换了新的工作的事情我还没说吧？
现在就来聊一聊吧！
辞掉了以前宠物店的工作过了6个月后，终于又开始上班了！
现在在一间很有名的西餐厅当厨师。。
虽然真的很不愿意做这一分工，但是为了不让Mummy的负担那么多，就打算先这样做这。。。

再等等看吧！
虽然说刚开始很讨厌（现在还是）。。。但是现在慢慢习惯了，会有好那么一些。。。
但有一点我可以确定的就是。。。 这完全不是我喜欢或是我想要做的东西。。。

现在还在寻找自己想要的。。。
所以目前为止，心里还是很空虚的等待着什么东西来填满它。。。
会是怎样的东西能填满我空虚的心呢？真是既期待又害怕呀！

而感情方面呢？
我想暂时先搁着。。。
不想去碰它。。。
总觉得自己有很多事情还没为自己做，哪里还有时间去管别人呢？
想做的事情很多。。。多道好像永远做不完似的。。。
我真的没有什么闲功夫去理会别人。。。
而且我也相信缘份。。。
就顺其自然吧！

好了。。。我累了。。。
才打这么几个字就头晕头疼了。。。
先下了！晚安！88