spring cleaning~!

is damn hell of a lot of work!!! damn it! is like forever nv ending de lor... at least i clear up my accessories which is the most kong bu part. when i clean up den i realise the OMG amount of earrings i have. and i realise none of my necklace is bought by myself... they r all presents! all my friends noe me veri well eh? hmm... i clean up my side of the room but not my sister's side so there r still so many things to do. BUT! i alr clean up the most important part of the house! the living room! YEAH!!! now veri tired... maybe I will juz go pack a little more den go have a nap or something...

haiz... missing you again... heartache doesn't go away... but why? why cant i remember anything?

hoping to find someone that can tolerate me... i may be nice, patient, and generous... but in a relationship, i m selfish, short tempered and willful. if someone can tolerate and accept this side of me, i respect tt person and willing to follow this person. but after 2 relationships, i dun think anyone can accept this side of me... normally they will just say, 'u changed'.

i dun change... is juz that i m taking my mask off and showing u the real me... but why ppl juz cant understand? becos of the non acceptance tt i have to keep wearing this mask until i meet someone whom i think can accept me for who i m...

missing u again...
and the heartache came again... =')

first time shopping for my own clothes!!!

today went to somerset with sarah... eat damn lots of things until i wan to puke! but i bought new clothes!!!! 2 tanks and 2 shirts!!!! hope i get the chance to wear them~! went to h&m to shop and i met the lovely couple... hwee kiat and eunice~! as lovely as ever since poly tt 2~! haha! glad to see them... but still a bit awkward... haha! but had a great day today becos i get to buy clothes tt i wanted so much and i get to drink my favourite hot chocolate as charlie brown's cafe~! hehe! ^^

ah tan wanted to introduce her cousin to me becos her cousin juz broke up with his gf... i said sure why not? but deep in my heart i m thinking... maybe not yet... so i said... "er... not interested..." haha! but valentines is coming soon~~~ my another favourite occasions... wishing everybody out there, couples enjoy each other's company... and for them everyday should be like valentine! dun be afraid to show ur love!!! cherish each other!!!! and for the singles out there!!!! PREPARE UR CHOCOLATES!!!! IS TIME TO CONFESS!!!! dun worry abt being rejected!!! as least u tried!!!! but also dun forget the manners chocolate tt u have to prepare for ur friends who have always been there for u all along!!!! hmmm.... i think is also time for me to prepare the chocolates for that few regulars... wad should i make this time.... hmmm......

having slight headache... have been drinking these few nights... getting lonely arent i? hah.

='(  frustrated with me isnt it? why do u even bother to take care of me? i m worthless anyway.... spending so much money n effort on me.... end up i m juz a useless daughter... if someone  can juz destroy me this world will be of a much better place...

38.5........

38.1... n getting higher... omg!

down with slight fever~ 37.8°c
couldnt slp till 5am...
headache, sore throat n back pain...
can feel tt my skin n eye balls are burning, but i still feel so cold... *gross*
lucky orbin is at home accompanying me...
me taking care of myself again...
as usual... woots~!
*brrrrrr.....* cold!

my lungs cannot take it alr... coughing non stop...

i m dying... my lungs are really horrible, terrible like a vegetable! but seriously... my back is not getting any better, n my lungs r getting worse... juz let me die... damn it!

i fell aslp again... in the middle of the day.. is getting weirder...

shit! my breathing problem came up... cant breath... i have to act ok... if my family find out, i m dead. my lungs hurts...

i m soooooo sorry..... ='(((((((

WAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!! ='((((((