Saturday, May 28, 2011
终于毕业了。。。 但是我没有感到特别的高兴,也不能说我完全没感觉。。。 总觉得心里很不安,就这样而已。。。 工作找上门,却被我拒绝了。。 “很不可思议吧?” 我是这么想的。。。 因为我期盼很久的工作,我却当场就拒绝了。。。 但是,心理不会觉得遗憾,不会后悔。。可却又有那么一点点的对不起家人。。 我做这样的决定,不知道Anselmor会说些什么。。。 如果他还在的话,他一定会说:“do the things u wan, be urself. ” 我每次有什么心事都会跟他说,然后他就会说很多很有道理但我又不是很听得懂的话。。他呀。。 每次都能逗我笑的他。。。 已经不在身边。。。 真的,有时想到他就这样丢下我不管, 真的有点讨人厌。。。 但是我知道,他没有离开过,他会一直在天上看着我,陪着我的。。
Friday, May 20, 2011
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Sunday, May 1, 2011
i dun get it. i seriously dun get it why whenever i wan to make a simple decision i will think of how others feel first instead of thinking of myself...
i dun get it. really. i m tired also thinking for others, but this is a behaviour tt i cannot change. this is making me frustrated!
but sometimes i try to think for myself and i juz think too much for myself and hurt others. ARGH!!!!!!!!! i seriously hate myself...
haiz... i dun even noe this is a good thing or a bad thing anymore!
should i go out without them tmr? or should i juz go supermarket with my sis and stay home with her the whole day and she do her things and i do my things?
if i leave her alone at home she will be upset, but if i stay home with her, i got nth to do. and i wanted to go out with my friends...
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i dun get it. really. i m tired also thinking for others, but this is a behaviour tt i cannot change. this is making me frustrated!
but sometimes i try to think for myself and i juz think too much for myself and hurt others. ARGH!!!!!!!!! i seriously hate myself...
haiz... i dun even noe this is a good thing or a bad thing anymore!
should i go out without them tmr? or should i juz go supermarket with my sis and stay home with her the whole day and she do her things and i do my things?
if i leave her alone at home she will be upset, but if i stay home with her, i got nth to do. and i wanted to go out with my friends...
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