希望不要迷路…

i m now really nervous abt the interview... haiz... wad am i gonna do? hope everything goes well... first thing first... hope i can reach the place without any problem... 像我这样的路痴，能到那么远的地方是奇迹!

猫万歳！

haha! i told my sister tt i goin to interview for pet cafe den she tell me if i go there work i will like dogs more den cats. but actually tt is impossible. becos other den megane(眼鏡) fetish i oso have neko(猫) ears and neko tail fetish. so obsess with inu(犬) is impossible.  i will only be obsessed with cats! hahahahahahaha!

interview tmr...

interview tmr. i hope i can get this job. after i get this job... after i earn 1 to 2 months salary i will invite kc out for lunch! yes! that will be the plan!

job arh job... where r u? どこ？

applied... sent 3 resume today... if no reply tmr i will juz have to keep sending more to different places... haiz... jobs~ jobs~ where r u? haiz....

extremely happy?

hmm... i wonder how does extremely happy feels like? i have never experience anything that makes me feels extremely happy. i dun think laughing my lungs out becos of something funny is call extremely happy.

i wan to FEEL extremely happy. in the manga the uke says his heart is so full that it hurts and it makes him wan to cry, and the seme said that this is call extremely happy. i wan to feel something like tt... i wonder if someone emotionless like me can feel this kind of thing?

烦啊！烦啊！

啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！！！
我快烦死了！！！！！！！
我快把我自己给气疯了！！！！！

要注意了。。。

刚才胸口又开始疼痛，很难呼吸。好像被什么东西压着。
我左边的乳房也一样又开始痛了。
是胖了吗？还是我又心理作用给自己压力？
我看我真的要注意一下我的饮食了。。。
唉。。。。。

what should i do?

what should i do now? haiz...

Bro! 救命啊！

KC 我真的好想你哦。。。
好想跟你说说话聊聊天。。。 可是又觉得很没有脸见你！
Bro 我该怎么开口？
没有工作的我根本没有脸和你说话。。。
（TT。TT）

很香。。。

现在我在地铁车厢里。我真的已经忍不住很想说。。。做我身旁的男生身上的香水味真的很香！ 是一种花香。。。真想就坐在这里闻这香味~

this is wad's goin on in my head these few months.. (scolding myself)

what m i to u? dun u even care at all? without a job how r u goin to support me? u noe i like to spend money. u noe i like retail therapy. u noe u r being a burden to the family. u noe ur family is workong so hard to survive, but u juz sit around at home and waste their money. do u think this is wad u should do? u said u wanted a bigger house, u said u wanted more cats and pets. u said u wanted to go japan, u said u wanted to open a cat cafe with ur sister, u said u wanted to buy a house tgt with sarah. u said u wan to give orbin a better life. so wad r u doin now? wake up and get a life!

i miss my brother!

kc arh kc... kok choon arh kok choon... i suddenly miss u veri much.... but... without  a job i dun dare to contact u... i scared later u disappointed since u support me so much... but now i need a listening ear man... haiz... brother! i will contact u when i got a job! pls be my motivation for now.!

sudden stress

suddenly feel stress out due to the sudden thought of getting a job. i dunno wad i can say in this situation becos if u all read the previous posts, i have been ranting abt getting a job for a long time now and i m still like that. feeling useless is not the only thing i felt but also being a burden to the family is the main source of stress that is somehow making me feel like maybe i should quickly get a job i dun like but can earn money or maybe i should juz leave home and go somewhere and never come back so tt at least this household have one less human to feed. there i go again ranting and ranting abt all sort of stupid ideas tt came to my mind but doesnt solve anything. i will think abt it again tmr... good night. (headache...)

The most beautiful manga that I ever experienced

This may not be the best yaoi manga I ever read, but I can say it is the most beautiful one I ever read. This is the first time I experienced something so beautiful. Yes, you did not read it wrongly and I did not type it wrongly, I said "experienced". I don't think (or remember) reading any book from this author, however the drawings and art of this author is so amazingly beautiful that it makes me feels like I have been there to see and feel everything. When I was reading, there are many scenery parts where it makes me feel the actual atmosphere in it. Like feeling the breeze in spring and the beautiful flower petals floating in the breeze, and I can even smell the faint flower scent in the air. That feeling is amazing, is beautiful! I don't know how to fully describe how I feel when I was reading, but I definitely recommend everyone (those who can accept yaoi) to read this book. If possible, try to support this author by buying the book (because my country doesn't sell, so I don't have a choice. But if I could buy I would).

The author's name is Takarai Rihito. And the manga I read are Hana no Mizo Shiru and Hana no Migoro ni.
(The latter one is the sequel.)



Picture Source: http://www.mangatank.com/manga/hana-no-mizo-shiru

Somebody help please!!!

haiz... my cat, Orbin, havent been feeling well these 2 days... he have been sleeping more than usual and he that active like usual... i cant say is because of his age because he is only 1 year and 7months old... so i dun think he should be sleeping so much... however he have been eating and drinking ok and he also goes to his potty everyday as usual so i dun really noe wad is wrong. i wanted to bring him to the vet to have a check, but i dun wan to make him stress out... everytime he knows he is going to the vet he will be so stress out and u can see how unwilling he is to get into the carrier.... and i check out on some websites saying that it maybe a sign of him getting anemia. now i m damn worried thinking whether i should book an appointment for him to have a check... now he sleeping out at the corridor... what am i gonna do???!?!?! they say to check his gums to see whether is pale or not... but becos his gums have black prints (he is a black cat) so i cant really tell... and i cant check whether he is having a fever or not... i dun have a themometer!!!!

oh! and one thing i realise is tt the weather recently is quite hot and humid. even though it may have a rainstorm sometimes but it is still veri stuffy and humid. i wonder if is the humidity or the heat that is making him like tt... please someone help!!!!!

please anybody help me with this! i would be grateful if anyone can leave some comments about any knowledge about cats.

I'm addicted to LINE I Love Coffee

hello everyone! this is the new game i m addicted to right now. every moment i have been on my phone juz to play this fantastic game. the characters are cute and adorable and the graphics is good. a game tt u will nv get bored by juz waiting to earn money, but rather u have quite a number of things to do! rather den juz press a button to make coffee, u actually have to go through the process urself! (although is only during level up and when special guest requested but is still fun better den juz waiting around doin nothing.)  also u get to wake sleeping customers up and rearranging the chair after they left and also u get to talk to ppl on the street so to make them ur regulars!!!

but there is one thing tt i m not satisfy about. is the price of the items. no matter is the clothes or the decorations, having to pay most of them in cash is a bit ridiculous! i cant keep leveling up my coffee to get cash or have to win cash from the special guest! i really hope i can purchase it with gold or at least let us change gold to cash. is really too expensive!!!!!!!

but overall is a good game, a game that u should not miss! download it now!

flip phone!!!!!!

damn it! i wanted a flip phone so bad...................
i wanted one that look like the japanese phone.... the brand docomo is not bad...
argggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanted a flip phone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

头又痛了......

头又开始痛，身体又开始不舒服了。
我想明天还是早点出去透透气好了。
真的是闷在家里太久了。
明天我真的要努力了。是我这个月的最后一次机会了。
我要加油！我可以做到的！不，我一定要做到！

不行了... 我的头又再痛了。
要去睡了，晚安！
おやすみなさい！

Help Out! Don't Buy, Adopt!

People! Please help these poor little ones!
Help out! Don't Buy, Adopt!

stupid phone lag like shit!

my phone's keyboard is terrible i m telling u! damn it i m pissed!