力不从心

Ahhh...... Suddenly feel very tired. No... Is not tired.. Is feeling old. getting older and older each day... Birthday coming soon and this year i dun feel anything special or worth celebrating. My relationship with my family is getting worse and i m jobless. dun feel like working but i got not much money left. have to start forcing myself to do something abt this. seriously i have been thinking abt this for months and i have been urging myself to do something abt this for months and i m still here.. not moving anywhere. this is wad i call 力不从心。