Thursday, November 29, 2012
trembling in fear
from the moment u said those words, i have been trembling... even during the dinner, every second i feel like crying, but i did my best to hold wadever tears tt was goin to fall... i can see tt mabel find me weird. but i have no choice but to avoid eye contact with anyone. i tried calling u ytd. u did not pick up. i try persuading u to let me have more of ur time. u didnt reply me with any ans even i repeated the qns. is it becos u dun love me anymore, or u love me too much? i dunno anymore. even until now, when i m typing this, my hands r still shaking... the fear of losing u. losing my precious treasure. we also promise tt we will only separate when u find someone u wan to spend ur life with... but now u didnt give me any reasons, juz becos we r not working tgt, we cant see each other everyday, u wan to give up. i dun understand at all.... please explain to me... i m really scared... my heart aches...
not giving up!
i m not giving anyone to anyone! u r mine! i m yours... dun juz throw me away when u havent even try... we r fated to meet n fall in love, but maintaining and staying together is not destiny, is an opportunity, a choice, a decision, an effort. why did u even say those kind of things... when i alr decided on u?! why...? why..........
Monday, November 26, 2012
i love u so much... too much... i cant leave u alone... my dear, is not tt i dun care or cant be bothered... but in order not to let u feel troubled, i hide my jealousy, so i act generous to let u go to her house n visit miko. in order not to let u see how flustered i m and how fast my heart beat when i see u, i have to act strong n avoid u. how i wish for every moment i can hold u close to me, let u feel my heart beat n dun bother abt other ppl's view. everyday i try to find a chance to get close to u but i dun have the courage to... so hoping tt u could feel wad i was feeling and pull me into ur arms and hold me close to u... so much i wan to noe abt u... but i dun wan to force u to tell me everything... i wan u to feel comfortable talking to me... i feel like i m being so greedy wanting so much things from u... if u r reading this post, i hope u can understand my love for u is endless... i promise myself since young, i will sacrifice anything i can to get the things or the person i wan, even if is giving up my life. i love you.
Sunday, November 25, 2012
i think i m lonely
another day goin to end n we didnt talk much. u r tired n i dun wan to bother u much. the smile i receive from u this morning, make my day! tried veri hard to not get close to u, becos ur smell is making me dizzy. maybe i m too lonely... tt's why i m like tt...
wishing and hoping
hoping that you could tell me everything. anything that is troubling you or anything that make you happy i hope that you could share everything with me. also wishing that you could stay happy and may all happiness be with you. i gave everything i could and everything i have wishing for your happiness everyday every night. giving everything i could so that i wont regret of not loving you enough or letting you down. i did my best.
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
getting job is oso another problem...
haiz... things happen in relationship sometimes... maybe i shouldn't be like tt... how should I say this... maybe just some time he can be more... hmm.. he can dun respect me so much...
nvm lah! 顺其自然吧!