Memorable day for my Galaxy Note

This morning when I woke up, I pick up my phone and unlock it. Then I realized my phone battery is totally flat so I tried charging it and start up again. But my phone got stuck at the Samsung start up screen and it wont load any further. THEN I realized my phone is DEAD! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But wad can i do?! my precious galaxy note is being sent for repair at jurong point's samsung service center and i have to wait for 3 days to get my phone back. The service person say if is software problems i dun need to pay so much. but if is hardware problem and they have to change the motherboard den it will be over $200!!!!!! and all the data will be deleted!!!! all my precious games are gone!!!! GONEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but like tt oso good... i will focus more on the boys den my phone and also my head and eyes wont hurt so much... so pls ppl... if u wan to contact me, pls sms or facebook me... becos currently i dun have any whatsapp or LINE or WeChat. Thank you veri much.

HOPEFULLY THE REPAIR FEES AREN'T EXPENSIVE.

heartache and stress

i was never so heartache and stress at the same time... but this time round becos of quack quack i experience it for the first time... becos he is being picky abt food he didnt wan to eat the health food tt the vet gives and he couldnt get any treats. he looks so sad and he has been begging for treats and those unhealthy food which r his favorites...  we couldnt give due to vet's order ... and now he look so sad and weak... and the feeding tube of his is giving me headaches becos his wound open up and the tube wasnt fixed d there anymore... i m really scared tt the whole tube might drop out if he scratch it or when he shake his head too violently... i really feel like crying.... but my sister will think i m pushing everything away... not wanting quack quack to recover and get healthy... she will find all sorts of stupid reasoning to frame ppl tt is wad she is good at doing... i m really stressed out... my headache is getting more frequent and my back is not getting any better with the salonpas. my mother cannot help me in anyway. wad m i goin to do now?

sweet tiny things ♥♥♥

ytd our neighbour who also have cats at home brought his new born kitten (only 2 weeks old) over to show us. he also offered to let us keep it after it get bigger, but me and my sis refused becos i dun think we can keep anymore cats with our house being so small and packed. plus i dun think Orbin and Quack quack wan it either... they dun seems veri friendly too the kitten. haha!

anyway, i juz wanted to say tt tiny things like sharing joy with neighbours is really somethin something i appreciate. also my other neighbour will bring the food she cook to us sharing and caring for our cats and we celebrate each other's festival together. is nice like tt. but juz some neighbours got veri terrible attitude and habits which makes things difficult for us. i dun wan to leave here but our family really do need a bigger house for the boys. also if we r planning to add another puppy to the list... a bigger house is definitely necessary.

Quack Quack's health condition....

I wonder when quack quack will get well... but i really hope is really soon... the vet say that he can take off the feeding tube next week but after taking out the feeding tube we have to help him replenish his body fluid by giving him IV drips everyday for 15 to 30 mins!!!! this means that i have to give him injections everyday!!!! My phobia of needles need to be overcome by next week! i cant let my sister do everything... firstly becos she is leaving for korea soon for her first overseas vacation, so i will be left alone at home without anybody's help... secondly even after she come back from her vacation i also cannot let her do everything becos after both of us got a job, we have to share the workload of taking care of the boys... i dunno whether i will die during the process due to high level of stress causing high blood pressure and i will have a heart attack or something but i really hope that quack quack will recover really really soon (provided that he wasnt that picky in his food =.=")

oh! and by the way! i didnt mention how and when quack quack got sick right? it was actually 1-2 mths ago... one morning when we woke up we found vomits all over the floor and we saw quack quack vomiting... he didnt have any appetite and he keep vomiting causing him to vomit out blood with the gastric acid and this almost lead him to having stomach ulcer... however, the whole cause of the vomiting was his small kidney which couldnt function well and remove all the toxic (specifically urea) in the blood and this cause the stomach lining thinning and cause slight stomach ulcer and he will vomit. this is how the whole thing goes so.... a feeding tube was inserted to control his diet and also becos he didnt wan to eat the kidney health foods. he have to slim down to a healthier weight so tt his kidney wont have such a heavy load to process. also he was dehydrating becos he cannot adsorb water into his body and he needed more water den usual to remove the toxin in his blood tt is why the IV drip come in to help circulate the toxin out of his body.

anyway... back to my main point... i dunno whether i can handle the injections but i will try my best to keep quack quack healthy and happy! (i hope i can really do it.... TT.TT)

我想更坚强， 我不想再做无能又懦弱的我。

对，又是我这个不孝女儿，没用的妹妹，无能的主人。
我真的一直有很努力的左我能做的东西，和我喜欢的东西。
但是，我很害怕改变。环境的变化，合作的伙伴变了，手头上要做的工作也不一样了。
这些的一切都改变了，那我又会变成什么样子?
每次有改变，我就会伤害到身边的人。尤其是家人。
我不知道要真么办好。。。
不知道能和谁说这些话，感到很沉重。
我真想买间大房子大家开开心心，平平安安，健健康康的过日子。
我到底该怎么做，要做些什么才能不让大家不开心？
心好沉。。。

fucking pissed off

is my last day of work and she want to pissed me off like tt... amazing! wad can i say? she' my mother! amazing powers of hers to pissed me off...