i found the book!!!

today went back to loyang to take the o lvl cert.. veri sian have to see the results again.. but nvm.. i saw many ppl goin back to take oso.. den after tt i was bringing my laptop around.. is like super heavy can!!! wadever.. den went to whitesands with sarah n yvonne.. we go see yun fang den after tt go burger king eat..

yvonne got a sore throat, yun fang is having a veri veri serious flu.. sarah did not take her med.. all this ppl dunno wad they thinking.. yun fang leh.. sick until like tt still wan to go work.. yvonne leh.. sore throat still eat burger king.. sarah leh.. she dun even bother to take care of herself.. 你们真的把我给气死了!!! haiz..

after tt yvonne went back.. den sarah n i go SP together to get my laptop self-certified.. now my com super lag can!!! forget it.. juz blame me tt i m in SP.. den we spend like 2-3 hours in the stupid small room with lots of new students n laptops.. the most frustrating part is the part where sarah n i couldnt find our way to the self-cert room.. n couldnt find our way back to where we came from.. but in the end we manage to get out of the freaking place..

den my sister, sarah n i went to KFC to eat dinner.. hahax.. tell u all one big good news!!!

I FOUND THE BOOK I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR!!! "THE PERFECT GIRL", 《最完美的女孩》. I FOUND IT AT LAST.. immediately i went to borrow it.. hahaz.. SUPER HAPPY!!!

read the first few parts.. quite exciting.. hahax.. i wonder wad will happen in the middle.. SO LOOKING FORWARD TO IT!!!

ok den.. nth to write le.. goin to JJ's blog to see.. BYE BYE!!!

understanding..

请不要以为你们很了解我。
我的感受是你们无法了解的。
被父亲抛弃的感受，
等待美满家庭的感受，
被家人每次责怪的感受，
看着心爱的人牵着女友的感受，
爱上一个不该爱的人的感受，
等待有人来疼爱的感受。。

这些痛。。
你们是感受不到的。。
而且你们也无法让我忘记这些痛。。
唯有JJ可以这么做。。

他的音乐。。
他的开朗。。
他的笑容。。
他的一切。。
可以让我忘记我的痛。。
让我松懈我的心情。。

is all becos of u..

is all becos of u..

that is why i'm keeping myself happy..

is all for u my dear..

JJ.. is all becos of u..

that is why i'm keeping myself happy..

JJ.. is all for u my dear..

i will love u with all my heart..

i will support u forever..

is all becos of u..

俊杰！生日快乐！

俊杰！生日快乐！

祝你所有的梦想，理想和愿望都能够实现！

我会永远支持你的！

还有要祝你，

身体健康，

唱片大卖，

《原來我不帥》的原声带和DVD都能大卖，

还有事事都平安，顺利！


永远爱你和支持你的，

　小开

JJ!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~!!!

MAY ALL YOUR DREAMS & WISHES COME TRUE!!!

I WILL ALWAYS SUPPORT YOU!!!

I LIKE TO WISH YOU,

ALL THE BEST IN ALL THE UPCOMING EVENTS!!!

AND HAVE A SUCCESSFUL YEAR AHEAD!!!

STAY HEALTHY!!

With l0ts of l0ves,

j0viaL

a lot to say..

hey hey!!! a few days nv blog liao.. let me tell u wad happen on the 22nd, 23rd n today!!

22nd mar,
i went out with sarah in the afternoon, around 2pm.. we took mrt all the way to Jurong East, n took a free shuttle bus to IMM!!! do u noe why i go there? it is becos of..... JJ 林俊杰!!!! cos he got a autograph session, n 金莎 is also there!!! although it was raining heavily (n i m drench) n i didnt buy his album (cos i got no money), but i still wait for JJ to come (he was late for abt an hour, but i dun mind).. i did not regret for waiting so long, cos i finally can see HIM!!!!! AHHH!!! >.< style="font-size:130%;color:#000099;">JJ 林俊杰!!! so i got no choice.. but to accompany her to the supermarket.. n the whole day until 7.30pm, she juz order me around the house.. ask me to do this n that.. haiz.. nvm.. if is for JJ, i dun mind a thing!!

i was really enjoying the whole show, although is not like in the stadium so high, but i still can feel the "high-ness" there!! hahax.. i love it!!! got any comments u wan to say abt the S-POP Hurray tt is on sunday, 23/3, 7.30pm.. pls tag.. thank you! =D

abt today,
i woke up super early to bath!!! u noe y? dun worry.. is not abt JJ again.. is becos i have to go to sch for a briefing.. so have to wake up early to bath, n take bus to interchange n mrt all the way to dover.. hahax.. i stand quite a number of stops but nvm.. will get use to it de.. plus the previous night my sis say i nid to bring laptop to sch everyday.. i was like.. OMG!!! i think i abt it.. although my laptop is quite heavy.. but i will get use to it.. today the briefing is quite ok.. not really veri boring.. den one n a half hour later.. i took mrt back to whitesands.. den went there to see yun fang.. chat with her.. den after tt saw sarah.. we go eat.. den go home le..

one more thing i like to show all of u.. today when i alight the bus.. n walking back home i saw something tt really make me heartache.. i will post the pics by there links.. cos i scared some of u dun dare to see.. but i can promise u is not bloody..

Click Here To See What It Is..

Click Here To See How It Really Look Like..

good friday

ytd went out with sarah.. we went to her church for some events.. den after tt go eat something.. during the dinner.. i took lots of pictures.. but u noe wad? i accidentally delete everything.. hahax.. sarah.. sry arh.. veri fast goin 11pm.. so we rushed to the bus interchange to take bus 3.. after tt we all went home..

my sister stay over at her friends house.. so the whole room is mine.. but in the end.. my mother wan to share the room.. haiz.. nvm.. i uploaded the rest of the photos tt i have not deleted.. n was having a headache.. so went to slp..

today morning wake up.. feel veri fan.. den zhen hong still call me.. super irritating!!! dunno wad to say lah.. juz hope yvonne reply soon..

enrolment day!!!

went for enrolment today.. got lost in the sch.. hahax.. cos the sch too big.. plus is under construction!!!

but in the end.. i found the place n got enroled!!! den went through lots n lots of clubs n ccas.. n tt was super tiring.. u noe y i didnt leave at once? cos all the exits r BLOCK!!! they super clever.. block all the exits.. n if we want to leave.. we have to finish walking the whole ccas n clubs rooms.. haiz.. their IQ veri high arh..

ok say until here..

is so sickening!! i hate it man!! i feel like killing ppl!! this is too much!!!

snow..

今天觉得心里闷闷的。不知道为什么，总觉得很悲伤，很想哭。是因为追偶像的事情，还是因为很快就要开学的原故？就怎么样都笑不起来。今天叹了很多次的气。。心情还是这个样子。。算了，可能睡一觉明天醒来就没事了。

突然好想看到雪喔。。从来都没有看过雪。。下雪的时候应该很美吧。。

偶像迷

今天上了悠悠。我发现到我好像没有追偶像的资格。因为我不知道要怎么追。。他们的所有活动我都没有去或参加。。因为我根本不能去。。我也没有钱买他们的专辑。。Haiz..我真的觉得我自己很没有用。。自己没有那个能力还要学别人追偶像。。真是想哭。。

check-up done!!!

YEAH!! today finish my medical check up le!! went with sarah.. we had our check-up done at the same time same place.. hahax..

haiz.. gain 3kg.. n shrink by 2cm.. super sad now.. but nvm.. i still post it on my profile le like wad i promise.. i dun mind abt my weight.. but my height.. haiz.. I WAN TO GROW TALLER!!!

if anybody noe how to make a 16years old girl to grow taler, pls tell me through the tag board.. thank you!

continue today's journey.. after the check up.. we went to the mall near by.. we eat long john, play arcade, n watch ppl ice-skate.. hahax.. it was really veri cold there.. those little girls skate until veri pro!!cos they got a personal coach.. hahax.. but they r really veri young.. i think they primary 3-4 only.. SUPER PRO!! hahax.. i oso got learn abit last time.. I GOT CERT DE HOR!! but now everything forget le.. hahax..

den after tt we took mrt home. sarah alighted at bugis.. n i take all the way to simei.. cos i feel veri bored.. so suddenly wan to see the puppies, kittens, hamters n rabbits.. took some pics of the puppies.. later will put it up..

b4 i went home.. i ran through all the books in the whitesands library.. juz to find the book name.. "The Perfect Girl".. if anybody had read this book b4, pls tell me more abt the book.. thank you!

ok nth more to write.. will see whether to continue tmr..

JM n JJ Federation

today is a super cold day.. not only today.. these few days r all veri cold days.. dunno wad happen to the weather.. i wear jacket everyday.. den keep on raining n raining.. haiz.. the clothes juz cant dry..

today sarah came to my house.. we watch some videos, den after tt do some poly stuff.. after a while, we got nth to do.. so we watch the vcd sarah brought.. hahax.. around 6.30.. she went home.. den i was alone at home again..

today, i super guai.. i did all the housework i have to do.. hahax.. my mother didnt say a thing today.. super happy de!! first time living in now this kind of condition i feel happy.. hahax..

and also i now working veri hard to become a JM to join the JJ Federation!! hahax.. anyone wan to join me? u can go to JJ's website..

hahax.. ok lah... nth much to write le.. bye!

忍耐的限度

我已经哭到没有泪水了。
我已经哭到没有声音了。
我已经哭到没有力气再哭下去了。

我只想麻烦这个家，
不要再让我这样的哭下去了。

我不是出气筒。
我不是没有感觉的。
我不是耳聋的。
我不是瞎子。
我更不是。。小丑。

我真的已经很累了。
我现在已经开不起任何的玩笑，
或是忍受任何的愚闹了。
所以，请拜托个位，不要把我当小丑。
请不要以为作弄我，我就不会生气。
你们要知道，人的忍耐是有限度的。
我在这里很诚恳的拜托你们了。

我好想你。。回来找我好吗？

昨天晚上，我做梦梦到“喵喵”。也就是我那时候每次上学时，都会跟着我的小猫。。我想我是因为太想它了。。今天一起身，我就大哭一场！因为“喵喵”已经不在我身边，我再也看不到它了。。它死了。。被车撞死的。。我再也看不到它了。。“喵喵”我好想你。。你回来找我好吗？

LUCKY!!!

LUCKY!!! i love it man!!! today dun have check-up cos the appointment is full.. YES!!! still got time to slim down.. super happy!!! so love today!! bought lots of shirts n pants.. spend lots of money.. n the poly fees r paid!! 20th still have to go for check-up.. but nvm.. at least by tt time i wont be so worry abt my weight.. after my check-up, i post my weight n height in my profile.. hahax.. den u all will noe how not slim i m.. hahax..

later den continue.. see got wad thing interesting..

ken lee...

i almost forget something!! i wan to show everyone wad my sister show me the other day..






hope u all will love it!!

小莊~!!!

今天看了《原来我不帅》第九集。小莊好可憐呀﹗心婷好狠心！我觉得嫚嫚说得对！心婷拒绝他，只用另一种方式来伤害小莊而已。看到小莊那么的伤心，我心里也不好受。。我一定要继续看下去，因为我知道小莊会有福报的！

明天就要去做身体检查！！！好可怕喔！！真的很不想去。。可是还是没办法。。我看我还是面对现实吧！肥就肥，谁怕谁啊！没长高就算了！还是现在去做一点心理准备吧！拜拜！

not feeling well..

i went to bugis today for the gong zhu xiao mei thing. but i the end i didnt see their faces.. but nvm.. i went to the library to have a look.. i first time see such a big library!!! nvm abt tt.. i now not feeling veri well.. i cannot life up my right arm.. once i lift up, my right side of my stomach.. not really is stomach lah.. but juz veri pain.. i now dun even dare to move myself.. i wanted to get down the bed.. but i scared to move.. and nowadays.. i having headaches.. i dunno wad is goin on.. i think i got wad kind of illness or something.. can it be cancer?! i so dun wan to go check up.. cos i will noe a lot of my problems.. although i might not have any.. but wad if i have?!! and i oso dun wan to noe my weight.. cos once i noe.. tt will be so heart breaking.. haiz..

i wan to be stretch vertically, not horizontally!!!

the opposite..

my life is getting weird.. i woke in the afternoon, n slp in the morning.. getting more n more tired each day.. trying veri hard to get back the old routine.. so tmr i decide to go bugis for the nan feng si jue thing.. like tt at least i got something to wake up for in the morning.. den i can slp early at night.. hope this work.. if it doesn't work, den is the end for me..

computer problems..

feeling much better today.. i finish my pre-enrolment in the morning, i think around 2am.. den i got an appointment on the 19th.. haiz.. next week have to go to the bank for the payment. den after tt still got medical check up.

these few days keep on raining.. wan to go out oso veri difficult.. oso the clothes juz wont dry.. haiz.. i think one day i got no clothes to wear.. hahax..

my computer still got problem.. haiz.. super ma fan.. i dunno wad is wrong.. when i open the chinese software, the internet explorer automatically close. and my window media player will stop working. haiz.. wad to do? i oso not free to bring my com for repair.. headache ah..

hope someone can help me with this problem. if not my com one day will become siao.. den cannot on anymore..

ANOTHER DAY

today my mother talk abt money again.. i really hate it when she start this topic.. becos after talking abt the poly fees, she will talk abt the utilities bills, den she will start talking abt how my father dun wan to spend the money on my sister's sch fees.. den she will start talking abt the things he do, say all his bad stuffs.. den in the end, she will ask me to take money from him, becos she dun wan to talk to him.. i hate to heard them quarrel.. and all they talk abt is money.. n my mother will always use my sister and i as excuse.. for the stupid money!

nvm.. i dun wan to continue anymore.. goin to cry le..

r they my parents???

i hate my parents!!!! both of them r liars!!! they sucks!! they always lie to me!!! y do i have such parents?! i had enough!! enough of all these lying!! juz becos they hate each other!! juz becos they r alr divorce!! they r too much!!! my sister treat me the best! she nv lie to me! nobody will understand how i m feeling now.. n i think nobody will listen to me..

i m tired.. veri tired.. i m crying everyday becos of all these family matters.. i really had enough.. really veri tired.. having to put a smile on my face everyday, to me is veri difficult.. especially smiling in front of my parents, make me sick!!! i cannot cry in front of my friends!! some of them will be worried, and some will be tired of it.. i cannot let me sister worry abt me too.. wad am i goin to do?!

ENROLMENT PACKAGE!!!

YEAH!!! I GOT MY ENROLMENT PACKAGE YESTERDAY!!! super happy, n frustrated. becos the instructions in the enrolment package is super confusing. u dun even noe wad is wad, n wad to do with it. somemore veri few friends same sch as me, so the enrolment method is different, cannot find anybody to discuss with. lucky my sis have the experience, if not i die alr. plus i got some help from xiu huan too!!!

sunday is the day!!! Gong Zhu Xiao Mei coming to singapore!!! waiting for my NanFeng Ling, Hu Yu Wei!!! Ahhh!!! but dunno whether can go or not.. see first bah.. hahax.. ok.. gtg.. have to do some research on the enrolment thing.. bb!

29 feb, fun day!!!

today went to yvonne's house. her new house not as big as her old house, but is still veri nice. =D i went there to clean the windows, although i didnt clean much becos i too short, cannot reach the top of the windows.. hahax.. zhen hong today do a lot of things, but he couldn't get anything rite. this make yun fang veri headache. hahax.. den after we finish everything, we sit on the clean clean floor, n eat donuts. yummy!! =D after tt, we start to pack up, clean up, n everything, den we went to whitesands for KFC, den went to arcade to play!!! yeah!! den came home, until now den can settle down to write something.

i heard from zhi xian tt she got her enrolment package alr!! i was so so shock!! she says she juz got it, but i haven't get any!! i'm now so so worry abt the letter not coming. haiz.. nvm.. goin to go play games le.. good nite!!